1 month into covid march 2020

30 de marzo de 2020 Por Kitcho

Life is not fair. It never was and never will be.
It’s very easy to fall into the entitlement trap.

To be honest I’ve spent on average 13 hours a day in bed the past few weeks of lockdown feeling sorry for myself.

The business I have been growing over this past half-decade seems to be unraveling before my eyes. Like as if I was in a car with no steering wheel driving off a cliff.

The past few weeks I have been getting nose bleeds, tightness on my chest that has Brought me to my knees. I have been Slowly Feeding the negativity monster In my head.

I have this idea that their are two monsters inside my head. They both need to be fed to grow. I made the decision I would no longer feed the negativity monster.

I thought the second monster needed happiness to grow. But I have been mistaken.
It doesn’t need happiness. It needs joy.
Happiness demands certain outcomes,
If we are searching for that we will often be disappointed.

What we really should be searching for is joy. Joy is something that comes without thinking and expectation. Easiest way to get joy is to have gratitude for all we have.

I have been quick to remind myself I have tremendous gratitude for my family. My children and the community I am in.

The thing is, this situation has thrown us all in uncertainty. It hurts. It really does. But what I have learnt. Only one thing is certain with uncertainty and that is we don’t know what will happen. Much like the unpredictability of the ocean.

For this reason, I plan on being like a sailor at sea, in new uncharted waters for the first time, maintaining a built-in sense of order, service and discipline, not quivering when the big waves make me lose my balance.